Oh dear I fell off the DB wagon yesterday H came Friday night and spent the whole weekend
Saturday we took D8 and her friend to a firework display, funfair was there and all that had a lovley day and evening.
During the evei=nig, cant remember how it came up but H said you gotta admit Sue you are unorganised.
I said yeah I know, I said thats part of me. When H and I were first together he once made a commenet about My sis being organised and how he couldn't live with someone like that!!
I said we all have our Idiosicresis ( gawd how you spell that?? ) lol He said yes I know.
Anyway then on Sunday we got up early and went to Greenwich Market. I spotted some staine glass windows ( ive always liked them) and I went over to have a look, H rolled his eyes and I looked at him and said what ?? H said Nothing and laughed. I guess I was just fed up with Validating, and I said what?? again, H said yu do like a stained glass window dont you, but he kind of said it like, how ridiculous!! Si I looked at him as tears welled in my eyes and said, Yes I do, and I know the things you used to love about me you now hate about me. H said No I dont hate them, I said you do, because you are living in afantasy world.
I then said, ( and he dont know i know about this) Going up London with a woman you dont live with is a complete fantasy, Its called BOREDOM H and we all get like that, do you think I enjoy every little thing u do ?? No But I accept you as you are!!
Then I just walked off.
He followed behind me looking like he was chewing a wasp.
I knew imidiatley I had fallen off the wagon, so I decided to think about this, what would I normally do. I decided that normally I would of taken two routes here.
1) would of been to totally ignore him for two days till he apolagised 2) apolagise myself for an easy life!!
So, I just turned round held his hand and said right what shall we do now.
He however carried on chewing a wasp.
When we got home, I needed to go out, In my car I was well wound up, but I thought let it go sue. So wehn I got home, H was in garden< I went out to him, he came over, I said I dont want nothing, just came out to see what you doing ( smiling) H said oh ( still chewing wasp ) I went in cooked dinner. H came in, we ate dinner ( wasp was going) Then we sat on sofa, and I said ohh I got little presnt for u, I went and got him the choclate I had bought earlier, then I sat with him and I said, Hey when did you last kiss me, he said, this morning in bed, I said, and when was the last time I kissed you, he was thinking, I said I kissed you before I went out, I said so I guess its your turn He kissed me, then he cuddle up to me, done the keep touching me thing, holding my hand.
He left the house at about 10ish, Kissed me goodbye.
I went to bed and at abot 11, I got a text just saying good night xxx
So, I guess Dbing works, I did something different
Whilst we were out in Greenwhich, before this all happened a positive happened, I was looking at some kitchen scales and I pointed them out and said they are nice, H said yes they are better than the ones" WE " have( he hasn't said that in ages) he normally refers to anything we have in the house as Mine.
