You are still waiting for her to determine your fate. Whether she comes back (blech) or not, you MUST fix this within yourself. You are discounting yourself, you are not showing your daughter that you are a whole man. I hope that your C is seeing this and helping steer you into the light. Time to realize that you are a whole person standing on two feet. You don't need anyone to make you valid or whole.
Fog or not, your W is only concerned about HERSELF. She would be coming back to you out of FEAR of losing face with her career. It has nothing to do with loving you and wanting to be a mother to her daughter. Why do you want that for yourself or for your daughter?
I think that YOU are just as addicted as she is. It's no good. Please look at your daughter and wake up. You've allowed too much damage to be done to her -- you get to own that, no matter what your W has done.
Please, please, please stop this rancid situation and provide a wholesome life for your daughter. Drop the rope, cut off all ties, expose, and go to church and confession. You need to cleanse, man.
