Woke up this morning feeling like I'm being played with.
I tried to hurry up and get ready and get out of there this morning. He said to me what are you angry about? And I just said I have a few things to work through. His response - whatever!
The anger is coming from a place of frustration and hurt. I did say in counseling last night that I am working on myself to be happy again whether this works out or not. I found it amusing that he said he's trying to improve himself - how? He's still not eating right, not exercising, and I can smell smoke on his breath (he's had two heart attacks)! I don't see him trying to do anything differently with his business or to learn how to grow it! He's working on his short temper - I haven't seen any improvements!
I think the "whatever" response from him this morning has to do with he feels that he's the wronged one in the relationship. He'll say he knows he's part of the problem but actions speak louder than words! I'm really tired of him playing the victim!
Can't wait to workout after work today! I'm going to take my time and have a nice long workout and then go tan. I know I need to act happy and that I'm going on with my life (which I am). I just really don't even want to go home tonight!
