he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

ive been at a loss for words since last night.

im all over the place and confused and at the same time alittle happy.

i realize the situation between my h and i cannot remain this way, that he must must must remove ow from his life or we will never have a real chance at a good marriage, or a marriage of any kind.

i also realize that he is a very confused man, in a mlc that has yet to run its course.

i realize as well that i cannot wait for him any longer, that although over these past years things have changed, he has been home and not 2 different times, that it cant continue.

i feel better knowing he is not fine, not ever sold on choosing the ow.

i feel like i have some breathing room to make a decision myself.

if this makes sense, i kinda want control of the situation, rather than have him do it for me.

maybe this is where i pull back, and feel ok with it.

im not ready to proceed legally, although i may never be.

i do want him back, but it has to be done the right way.