It's been a quiet week so far. Hs is back from his vacation with OW, but he still hasn't talked to me about anything... no idea if they are really seeing each other or not, if the Jarads bill means it's serious and he got her something (ring?), if he ever plans to talk to the kids about things, if he even thinks about us or feels sad or unsure...
The only communication is about bills and always via text. He asked again today about the title for his old truck. I have found it, but part of me doesn't want to cooperate... a bigger part knows it's the right thing to do, and turning over the title doesn't change anything.
Ran today at the Y which felt good. Call from a mutual friend of ours. Asked me to go to a bbq this weekend and rafting with him and other friends in two weeks. I hope to do both. Not sure but get the feeling he may be interested in me. I'm not but figure it'd be fun, and maybe he'll have some insight into H's current mindset.
Also saw my family tonight at a bbq. I am picking up vibes that most of them are not hopeful H will ever come around. They are all Christians and pray for us, but just want me to stop hurting I guess. I need to limit the discussions, b/c like talking abt the Jareds bill just makes me obsess and I don't want to. SMW mentioned on another thread that I should try to surround myself with positive supporters - church, etc. Everyone here has been wonderful as well. I wish everyone thought about saving M's like we do! And we may not save the marriage in the end, but we save ourselves with our healthier attitudes and taking care of ourselves.
I got some extra tools from my BIL for my garage - yea! Little things like a wrench and pliers make me happy!
Listened to my mom (77 yo) play the piano tonight. Felt like I was 10 again, just hearing the classical pieces, totally relaxed and not a care in the world. Not much time left with either of my parents so it was nice to just be in that moment and appreciate it fully.
