I'm sorry you are feeling down. Cutting back on the antidepressants may not be a good idea right now. Eventhough the wedding may be hard, it will be good for you to be around family and friends.
I hope you are able to enjoy the day.
Me47 H46 S13 M16 Piecing since May/09
"Life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we react to it." Lou Holtz
Thank you so much!!! When I'm down I can always come here & someone will cheer me up!!!
I'm still down some today & I can't get off the antidepressants just yet. I called my cousin in Iowa tonight, he & his wife are coming to the wedding in AL, he is the brother of the cousin that died. I called him alot when all this was happening with us. His wife called me when she first heard about the D & said it wasn't right for us not to be together we were so perfect, as Forest Gump said, like peas & carrots.
It was raining last night & turned a little cool today & was cloudy & depressing, but knowing that I am going to be gone all week I got out & mowed the yard so it wouldn't look so bad when I got back.
I am looking forward to being home & being around family & friends. It will be nice.
Again, thank you all for being here for me & letting me know that my depression is normal. People that have not been through it does not understand & I know all of you do!!!
Ms Ladybug! Thank you so much for posting to me. Yes, I do take Charlene Cares daily emails. And yes they are very helpful. I haven't been to her site in a long time. Thank you for the tips on the tapes. I need to check into that for sure & the books.
Yes, I am on fb. I'm under a different name than my real name b/c I found out OW is on fb too & I sure don't need her checking in on me. She has done enough, emailing me like she has in the past. My name on fb is--------------, so invite me & I'll respond then we can trade email addresses. I don't get on fb much just every now & then.
I really want to thank you for posting to me!!!!!
(((HUGS))))
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Thank you true for checking in on me! I do know how you feel!!! Sometimes I just get so sad I can't stand it.
The Wedding was beautiful, as most weddings are but I almost had a panic attach & thought I was going to have to walk out in the middle but I made it without doing that but of course I cried. They had a picture of my cousin (the mother of the groom that died) on the table where the unity candles were & they had flowers sitting around her picture. When I saw her picture I started to cry. I did ok after that until the wedding music & the vows. Then I just lost it! I was very sad but very happy for the couple. They are so young, but at least they have dated for 4 1/2 years & both finished college before they got married. His mother always told him he was just like me.
I'm enjoying my time with my family although I've had some really sad times. Our annual meeting at my church here starts tomorrow night so hopefully it will lift me up!
Thank you all for your support & being here for me!!!
I'm sorry I haven't been on DB in a while. Just been busy & a little down. Tonight we had strong winds & I've got 2 huge limbs down in my driveway, I can't get in or out without going in the yard & when I got home tonight from dinner with a GF I had to get out & try to move the one in the yard so I could drive thru the yard. Oh well, I think my neighbors may help.
I did get a very surprising email today. It's from the wife of ex's friend that lives in Thailand. Here it is:
Hi N,
So glad that you're still at the same email address! However, you may want to consider changing it, since the troll and L have decided that they want to try to break into your email account. She wanted my husband to break into it for them, so that in case you received any rental income, they'd know about it. My husband flat out refused, and is now not talking much to L. (He told L that we'll be back in touch after they break up. ) Hopefully this happens before she spends all of his money and gets him into debt.
Anyway, I met her once but could overhear her conversations with my husband and figured out what a manipulative *&%^* she was. Then, we ran into her at a restaurant where some friends had taken me for my birthday. She was getting take-out, since she doesn't cook. She was bragging to our friends, who don't even know her how she was chatting on line with a prospective employer (of L's) as L. So creepy!!! Why would you impersonate someone else, unless you were pretty messed up?
Just wanted to let you know that you certainly did the right thing divorcing the idiot. My husband still can't believe what a spineless person he's turned out to be -- especially since they've been friends since grade school.
Hope this hasn't upset you too much. But, I'll be sending you an invitation to set up a gmail account, just in case they ran into some unscrupulous person to hack into your email.
N, What a bunch of idiots! Here's a suggestion...leave the old email address as is, but set up a new account and use it for all of your personal communications.
I can't help but wonder what is in the water they are drinking, especially if she is impersonating your xh. She could go to jail for that, i.e., identity theft!
I'm sorry about the storms you've been having. Hopefully your neighbors will be kind enough to come over and move the limbs for you. We've had some storms here as well.
Please think about creating a new account and use an ID that is so totally not you for communicating w/others.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Yes, I am going to. I can set up several emails with the provider I have so I'm going to leave this one & set up another for everyone else. I got another email from my friend & she said this woman is like a cult leader & my ex is the follower. I was shocked that his childhood friend said he would be back in touch with him when they broke up. He has supported my ex in everything or anything he has done & has always stayed in touch with him no matter what, so this is pretty bad for him not to b/c of OW. I knew she was bad but I didn't realize how bad. She is evil!
Plus, I would not use my email for rental income, she just wants in my emails for some reason. That was just her/their excuse for his friend to try to make him do it. If I'm getting rental income from a non family member then alimony stops. That wouldn't be handle via email anyway, duh!
I hope he will wake up before she ruins him completely!!
I did talk with my internet provider last night & I'm setting up a security where people cannot hack into my computer or emails.
You know, this is like a soap opera, I'm not sure Hollywood could come up with all this stuff that this woman is doing & all that has happened to me regarding this. I'm a small town girl with moral values & can't believe this has happened! My ex did have moral values. He is off his rocker right now!!!
Oh & by the way, yes one of my sweet neighbors came over & sawed up the tree limbs & helped me get them moved!!
