Survival mode... that's what I feel like I'm in...
I may be faking it in public, but once I'm home, or somewhere private, I'm back to me in survival mode again.
Guess I could stay gone all the time?
How warped is this? I was driving through neighborhoods this evening while the S's were at soccer, looking to see where we might want to live. Drove by our original neighborhood... all I could picture was us in the master shower together... Drove by our other neighborhood, same kind of vision...
I pulled over, cried a bit, and had to shake my head about 10 times to lose the vision.
God!
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
