Wifey... you'll love this... I wimped out on "traditional labor" and had three C-sections! LOL
Thank you for your words.
Personality-wise, I am, TOTALLY, impatient, a little bit of a spoiled brat, and fairly non-confrontational... (Gee, sounds like a winner, eh? LOL) So, your synopsis of "It sounds like I can't do better because...." is pretty much spot on... MAYBE ALL of the reasons, but most of all, cowardice to move beyond the settling, and onto happiness due to the fright of failure.
THANK YOU for your words and thoughts.
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
Kids are off of school now. LAZY week, with just a few activities besides SOCCER... (Try-outs this week for next season (starting in August)
D18 is working on getting a summer job. Waiting on her grades to arrive... That will determine whether she's going to the university in southern IL, or the local community college. We're hoping for the best, as she's outgrowing the nest, but not quite there (responsibility-wise) to invest $20k per year in yet, without proof of potential for success. (talk about a run-on sentence!)
Tonight it's GAL time for me! It's one of my closest friends bdays. I'm looking forward to some friend time.
H was home last night (gets home once during the work week), and met us prior to a soccer game for dinner, then went to the game, came home and stayed until 11:30 (had to go back to work). It's funny... When he comes back in town, initially, he's a bit distant, but warms up as time progresses. I thought about it later... He's like this in almost every aspect of life. It takes him a bit to open up, feel comfortable. Just an observation.
We talked about the vacation package I bought for his birthday. We agreed that I would schedule it today (for mid-July). Seems like he's looking forward to going.
That's all folks.
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
PSS - Just checked classes for the gym. Only one that will work is the NORDIC WALK class... LOL How f*in lame is that? But, WTH, I think I'll try it. I'll be out w/all the babes that require a POLE to walk!
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
It's funny... When he comes back in town, initially, he's a bit distant, but warms up as time progresses. I thought about it later... He's like this in almost every aspect of life. It takes him a bit to open up, feel comfortable. Just an observation.
Divorcee who looked at our house again still thinks it is her #1 choice. She's making an offer on something prior to end of the month. Needs to be into whatever she buys by Labor Day. (Works for me! Another summer on the river!) She had a short list of items she had questions on... all easily explained or fixed (dumb 100-year-old kind of house stuff).
H gave me the update on a home I had seen online (listed by same agent that showed our house). I asked him what he thought of the area (new and kind of remote from where we are now...). He said he liked it, and would make it convenient for him when he has to travel.
GF's b-day night was FUN! Now I'm sleepy today! H called my phone about 10:15pm (knew I was w/the girls, and had info for one of them), and thought it was funny that we were STILL out.
The boys have friends over, and D18 is baby-sitting. Beautiful, sunny day here.
And, I'm WAY close to closing $145k order. Just waiting on one signature from someone in purchasing at the university. Yahoo! Nice commission dollars on $145k!! I have another one, hopefully, closing next week for $70k, and two more before the end of the month for about #125k. Between having a new territory, and this economic climate, it's been slow coming! The cost of sales on these projects is quite high from what I've been used to in the past. I will say, though, that all of them are in competition with a company with a dopey guy that handles this territory. And, I sell, primarily, to males. I think they like the blonde better!!!
Off to soccer this evening w/S12 and S9.
Cross your fingers, say a prayer, chant, something!!! That we sell this house. I LOVE my house, and it's really NOT for sale, but my H considers this house the beginning of the end of his feelings for me (since he didn't want to move in, and felt forced into a house he didn't want to be in, a lifestyle he's not comfortable in, and a lack of choice). Bad kharma in this house!
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
Survival mode... that's what I feel like I'm in...
I may be faking it in public, but once I'm home, or somewhere private, I'm back to me in survival mode again.
Guess I could stay gone all the time?
How warped is this? I was driving through neighborhoods this evening while the S's were at soccer, looking to see where we might want to live. Drove by our original neighborhood... all I could picture was us in the master shower together... Drove by our other neighborhood, same kind of vision...
I pulled over, cried a bit, and had to shake my head about 10 times to lose the vision.
God!
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
