Well I've already changed and apologized for my errors in the M. Sometimes I worry about my W believing all the lies she was telling herself to push me away. I mean, she was the most gentle and trusting person I knew (as are most WASs I've found out, LOL), then she turned around and became this spiteful, angry, depressed and bitter person. Sometimes I wonder if it was the birth of our last child only 2 years ago that pushed her over (hormones). Plus I think her family has a history of depression although they don't talk about it.
Stop apologizing for everything, always realize that the relationship is a dual responsibility shared by two people, it's not all you, if you keep taking all the blame, she'll never feel as if she did anything wrong.
Hormones are definitely at play but it doesn't have anything to do with the child birth (or at least not to the extent that you're thinking it does).
Her being spiteful, angry, depressed and a bitter person towards you is her treating your poorly because you stand in the way of her great life. She is guilty about her actions but doesn't want to change her ways because her new found freedom is too important to her, you're an obstacle in that new life. She doesn't like feeling guilty, everytime she looks at you it's a reminder of that guilty feeling and since she doesn't want to fix the relationship because at this point her attraction towards you is very minimal, she can only feel guilty about her actions and angry at you because you remind her of what she's done.
Her anger, cruel, bitter attitude is a natural thing that most WAS's experience when they have an affair (or affairs) and still have a LBS to deal with at home.
