N, Please stop apologizing for feeling the way that you do. You are going to have ups and downs for quite some time. After all, the weather hasn't been the happy, chipper weather it should be either.
I'm glad you are feeling a bit better. The dog will recover and it will take time for the both of you to stop itching. Any way, it's one day at a time and doing things around your home a little bit at a time is so much better...tackle things as they come along and don't over load all in one day.
As for the wedding, yes, you'll most likely cry and be sad, but you know what? You will be there w/family and friends and they'll be supportive. Enjoy the time w/your parents.
Take care of yourself.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
