Maybe I just need to move on. I'm not very good at discussing things on here anymore. Maybe I am becoming bitter. I don't know why though because other than a few things my @sshole stbx is doing my life is great. Better than it has been in a long time. I guess since I am enjoying life so much it bothers me to see all my friends on here in so much turmoil. It hurts me to see how much you love your wife and are willing to do for her but she has her blinders on. For all the times you wanted to talk to her and she ignored you and now she thinks she can turn around and talk freely with you without any repercussions.
Trapt, I don't want you to lose hope or anything because it would mean the world to me if you came on here one day and said she has woken up from this fog and is coming home. You keep that door cracked and show us that there is such a thing as miracles in this world.
I do appreciate the care, conceren and advice. ALL of it. I hate seeing everyone hurt here too, and I can only speak for myself about this.
Right now I'm choosing to do this. I can pull the cord and eject at anytime, and from time to time that thought crosses my mind.
I don't have the answers, but I do know this is the path I need to keep traveling on right now. Will she come back? Who the hell knows? I do know this will grow me as a person.
It still is one day at a time and today isn't the day.
I'm not upset with you or anyone else who offers advice. I do know you care and I really appreciate it. Just please keep in mind this is my choice.
