Thanks for your advise, I like your advise, its what I would tell myself lol If I could see past the tress, Sometimes when you are in the thick of it, you cant see through( in your own sitch.)
I knew I had made a few mistakes with the R talk, but when you are there and with them,specially after being intimate, its hard to keep your focus on where you are going, know what i mean ?
Im definatley leaving the talks alone for a while.
I forgot to mention in the last thread, Sunday night H was telling me he was in a chinese take away and on the wall they had the chinese horoscope thingy, dont know much about it myself,but H was saying he was looking at it just to pass the time whilt waiting for his food. He said that there was a part where you look up your perfect match, he said he looked it up and it came back with Sagitarius ( Thats ME ) He said I had to chuckle to myself.
I laughed : But didn't add nothing. Felt it was positive though.
All we can do is keep going on and hoping that someday we will see the light and they will see the light....just pray it's the same light. I will keep hope adn prayers for you....please keep them for me as well..... email if you want rrk61970@yahoo.com
Sue, I'm so happy you are here in piecing, someday I hope to be here! It should be a goal of mine! Still reading your threads and finding lota of wonderful pointers! Deb
I cant believe what happened last night, DBing works!!
This may be a long post
Ok where do I start?
Over the last few days as I have mentioned recently, I been feeling a bit up in the air. I was thinking about this last night, goty me thinking how far I had come, and How I need to keep focused. I replied to a few threads yesterady about Goal setting, got me thinking, hey sue, practise what you preach girl, you aint been stting any goals latley.
I think because H and I had got to the Dating stage, I had put me compass back down.
So last night I picked up me DR book, I re read the chapter all about reaching your goals and how far you ahve come.
Michele says, Where on the scale from 1 to 10 was your R before starting My answer was definatly a 1 where are you now I thought probably an 8 what did I need to do to bring it up to a 9 ?? So I sat thinking about this assesing some new goals. Decided I needed H to tel me he loves me again. Thought maybe this was a big goal, so tried to brake it down. Little things that would lead up to H saying he loved me again.
Then I thought ok what Can I do to bring me nearer to those goals?? thought about this and decided I had been using the LRT, get a life technique, however I had not found a new technoique since dating, and decided the LRT was definatly not what I should be doing now.
Any way, I havent seen H since Sunday, He has gone to sweden from Wed to Sat. He rang me Tuesday night and said Just ringing to remind you Im going away. I said " no I hadn't forgoten" H said : do you want to go out Sat I said Yerah sure
So last night I was thinking he is now in Sweeden, So, I text him. Oh he had not actually ever told me where he was going. My Text: Where are you? H text : whos asking?? (Me very confused ) My Teaxt : Me H text: whos me?? ( Me thinking WTF??) Now im beginning to get all in a flap, thinking allsorts, Like he has gone away with a Woman and she is answering. My text: who did you spend Sat night with ? ( me using cleverness <gg> ) H Callled Said: who is it ?? Me ( very confused) Its me Sue H : Oh I lost all me numbers , But I had put yours back in, have you changed it ? Me: No H: Is it ( Number) Me: Nope thats my old one H ( laughiing) Oh No wonder I didn't know who u was. Me: so how many wimmin do u spend Sat Night with? H : I thought u meant evening, I thought it was your Sis. This does make sence lol Me : Oh I thought someone had pinched ya phone and I wasn't prepared to say what I want to say to a stanger. H: what you want to say then ? Me: No you have ruined my game now H: well tell me then Me: Noooooo H: trying to stay on the phone and acting very affectionate, like he used to in the old days. ME: Ok Ill let you go, so where are U ? H : sweeden, I will call you later Me ( surprised) Ok Thjen I text him emidieatly after( continuing my game) saying dont supposse yu have time to go shopping? I didn't get a reply for about 2 hours H Text: what did you want earlier then Me text : didn't you get my last text ? H calls and saidd: No I didn'[t get text what did it say. Me Oh H, Im not gonna say H: just tell me Me: Ok I asked if u had time to go shopping H: No you didn't lol Me : yes I did, cos I want a pressie H I was going to buy you a pressie anyway Me: I want a special pressie though H what? Me: Something special to wear Sat Night H Sat Night? Me : To BED H: oh I c Me: Cos im expecting Company H: Oh Where I gonna get that ? Me: must be a lengerie shop at airport H: what you want then ? Me : Something of YOUR Choice H: I will see what I can do Then he said you know when You tect me earlier Me : yes H well I, No im not gonna say Me : h you gotta say now, you made me tell you what I wanted H Ok I I.... No im not saying Me just say it H: I was thinking about you Me : ( Gobsmaked) was you ? H yes Me: what was you thiking? H: ive said enough ( lauging) Me: so you was just thinking ohh sue H: No lolol ( change subject)
Is that not a step nearer to my new goals I set that night??
Ok it dont end here
1am in the morning I get a text H text : I have a big bed, I mis u ( well After picking my chin off floor) I text : a mesage I had on my phone for ages It says Mis u over and over and its flashing . (knew I would need it one daay) H called He is drunk lolol. I say: are you drunk H a little yes H said : i liked the message Anyway we talk about stuff I cant really remeber then H says are u 40 this year Me Do u have to remind me ?? H: are you Me : yes H what you doing for your B day ?? Me : Dunno H:I was gonna ask if you want to go away for long weekend Me : you was gonna ask ? H: well I am asking Me Yes, i would love to H: Ok I will sort it. Cant really remember thge rest, I think I ha dfainted lol
anyway I best stop here Dunno how long you can actually keep typing on these things lol
Sue, Wall paper huh !? Well, I hope to have my butt over here as soon as I can! I'm working on it. H came over and it was a good day! Went well and hopefully we will be golfing with friends soon! I accomplish this and it will be a big step-H and I out doing a fun thing together even if it is with another couple! Think that man is praying I forgive him! He looses the OW and I will be in here quicker than quick! LOL Deb
