Nicole, rather than torturing yourself by reading back through my threads, let me share with you that H and I did the sex, playing house and family thing at his whim for about 4 months. I do not feel bad about it and of course, I hoped that he would say "Hmm...home is much better than chasing rock star and getting the leftover groupies." Alas, it didn't happen. There were pathetic little glimmers...him laying on me and saying "I could just fall asleep right here." But the impasse, whatever it is/was is just insurmountable. I don't know what it is or if there is another woman.
This is SO personal. The sex never made me feel bad and now, I think I'm just done with it. I wouldn't have a romantic relationship this one-sided with anyone so I probably shouldn't with H.
You are fine. Of course, most will say don't "give" him sex, but who knows what is going through H's mind...
There was one thing that 25 said that got to me though. Not that it is my responsibility but, how does H feel about me allowing him to treat me like that (here at his disposal)? It is pretty icky if you think about it.
