No one is looking at the not filing as "negative". We're only concerned because once again, your whole mood depends on what your wife is doing or not doing. For example, your remark about the "happiness" you feel now. Too bad that will only be a fleeting feeling until your W does or does not do something that plummets you back down into your cycle of depression, whining, self pity, etc.
Please heed the words of others regarding meds. I've never had a problem with them, but have had family members become addicted to Xanax -- it's a very potent and potently addictive drug.
