WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 10

[confusedinpa]

"revenge" is a pretty strong word. Getting a little angry huh?

Told you about the rollercoaster getting worse.

Just be prepared because once you have another positive interaction with her, you're going to fall right for it, then set yourself up to getting hurt again.

I'm not sure if its anger or I'm becoming resentful. Could be the same thing.....

Last nite's interaction, while not positive, was not negative. It was frustrating though as she still doesn't get it.

I am hopeful that when we were talking about how the kids are really acting up/out when she has them, that it will knock some of the fog away to see how the kids are reacting/dealing because of this situation. Last nite she completely dismissed it was how they were acting when I was away on one of my trips.

One thing that I had forgotten to mention as part of that call, was that she said that when they get stressed/angry, they would ask to go back to daddy. She asked if they ever ask to go to her place when I have them. I told them that they did not.

I did talk to my WAW friend about this. She just laughed and asked, "So what are your really missing then? What do you want back? Just constant complaining and misery?" I told her that I wanted my wife and family back together. I did tell her that it wasn't like this before. I just don't know how it changed so abruptly.

I guess I do have to remember, from a WAW perspective, the tension, complaining and misery has been going on for some time. My WAW friend would say how she would make excuses to work late so she wouldn't have to go home to deal with it. My wife never did that nor did I (particularly since I thought everything was fine)

I really hope she thinks and sees some of the reality of what is happening to our family. I doubt if she will and even if she does, she will find a way to excuse it or put the guilt on me. If she tries that, I will be strengthening my wall so I will be ready this time around.

Very frustrating and in utter disbelief.....