A New Decade - Part 2

[MsMelancoly]

Thanks Julia.

Update for me, I'm officially divorced! Can't believe it, it's kinda surreal. Congrats, condolences, I'm not sure.

So I waited for my H outside of the courtroom. He showed up & there was one case before us. That lasted for about 1/2 hour. They were done & we were next (only ones in the court room). Odd, but good. My H had to take the stand 1st, answer some questions (some I had to help him with, like how long he has lived outside of the county). My H also said we were only M for 7 or 11 months (couldn't quite hear him). So he was just considering we were M while we were living together. Strange, how the mind works. Anyway ..... The judge had him review documents & he agreed with all of them. Then she asked him if the M was irrevacally (sp?) broken, he said yes, we make better friend & were going to Pirate fest together. Yes, he actually said that .... I think he was a bit nervous. I then took the stand agreed to the paperwork & also agreed our M was broken. the property & debts were divided, like we divided them. My H didn't want me to have any of his debt. She told us we could not marry until after a 6 month waiting period. And that was pretty much it - done - finee!

We walked out of the courtroom. In the hallway I shook my XH hand & said congrats single again (or something like that). He said don't say that I feel sick & we kinda hugged. As we were walking he said, you were right M is just a piece of paper & I was the one who wanted to M. I said I know, I never thought it would end like this. But, I said, this doesn't have to mean it's the end.

I then stopped at the restroom, when I came out, he said he had been counting & that I can't get M until Dec. Then I said, know we are single & can have guilt free debochery. He said he didn't feel like having any debochery.

We were parked in the same area, so kept walking together & chatting. At one point he said that he loves me & that he will always love me. (Ah, how sweet). I was surprised he said that. He has not said he loved me 1st in years. I think, I said, I loved you too back. Then he asked if we could not talk about this (meaing the D) for a week or so. I said talk about what? So we chatted about other things. Sounds like he is thinking of filing for bankrupcy. I said, we could have worked on these things together. i think he knows that, but the guilt was too great for him. We then chatted about his 2 friends. I said, I don't have a lot of friends, but why is it that yours seem to take & take from you & never help or give back when you need it. He said, I don't know. I said friendship is about give & take. Well, it was time for him to go. He said to wish him luck, because they are having another round of lay offs at work tomorrow. We kissed & hugged goodbye, I told him that I loved him & would always love him. He said, hey I said that 1st.

So we still have plans for going to pirate fest, which he meantioned. We just have to decide on which day.

Not sure how I feel .... numb is a good word.
Tis, a bitter sweet day.