I am having funny thoughts, have been for a while.
I dont know if I just detached so much or what, But I dont actually want H to come home, Just yet.
In the beginning I wanted H back no matter what.
Oh Im having trouble explaining this!!
I have realised, in hindsight, that our R was not perfect. I have realised that I didn't help the situation, with my resentment. I am not BLAMING H, however he had a lot to do with it. I have got used to being on my own, I am resonably happy. I like seeing H and dating him, however I dont want him home, it frightens me the thought of going back.
When we had our Talk, he said he was not sure what he was feeling and he wanted to just date for now, ( Think he was aorried I was gonna jump at moving him back home). When I said to him that I felt the same and I didn't wnat him to come home yet, and that I NEVER wanted to go back to what we had, I saw the shock on his face. He certainly was not expecting that.
Are all these feelings normal, or am I falling out of love ?? Yes I know the bit aboutb love being a decision, but, im just feeling confused.
SHE still works for him, Im not sure how to aproach that, cos I cant live with him knowing he goes to work where she is. Having said that I know he has nothing there for her, he has admitted to her being a symptom and I know he does not want her.
He keeps talking like a typical Person In MLC, the other night when we went out he said all his values have change, he no longer wants to be in a nice house, he wants to do stuff. Well we both agreed that kind of thinmg ages ago( Your house should not be your castle and all that kind of stuff) He is talking of buying a holiday home, something HE necver wanted to do, I Did Lol. He seems to be lost in direction, because next thing he says he wouldn't mind moving out in sticks abit to get a bigger house, Make sense ?? NO, lol but what man in MLC does ?
Oh Im rambleing now, But Im a bit lost too, Im not sure what I want.
Any one else had these kind of thoughts when they started dating again ?
