The point of the song was just that sometimes I think we tend to hold on to pain because the fear of numbness is worse. How can you ever feel happy and at peace again if you can't feel anything at all?
Mishka, this spoke to me. I have often felt this way...through the D and with what I am going through right now. I can remember people telling me during the D that it would quit hurting and me thinking that I didn't want it to quit hurting, I didn't want to feel nothing.
As for the changes you want to make for yourself that you feel you should be able to change...how about writing them down and what you need to do to get there? Make sure you don't have unrealistic expectations of yourself.
