Magnificent

[mishka422]

You are right Lisa, there will be a time, at some point, that things will turn. NO clue when that might be.....hopefully before I'm driven over the edge.

The point of the song was just that sometimes I think we tend to hold on to pain because the fear of numbness is worse. How can you ever feel happy and at peace again if you can't feel anything at all? See where I was headed with that....waxing philosophical again. I should really give that up.

I'm not in pain really right now, just more ho hum. Bored to tears with life, frustrated with Marc and his lack of self-motivation when it comes to school and life in general (he definitely gets that naturally enough...from his father!), and angry with myself for not being able to change some things in my life that I seriously need to change. So, not pain....just frustration. At least it's a feeling though, not nothing.