Trying to detach from the madness!

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I forgot to mention a few new changes coming up. Exh has visitation on Saturday mornings. He hasn't been making them due to his community service. He is now done with that and said he will be over on Saturdays again. I could tell we both had a hard time emotionally on Saturdays. It was a time during our relationship where we just got up and played with baby, hung out, and just relaxed. So when he comes its the same feeling. I know he felt it too as when he was coming he got more emotional. During his weekday visits he is tired from work, stressed about his other kids, getting home etc. I am a bit nervous about him coming again.

His moms wedding is also next weekend. We haven't discussed it further but I haven't decided what to do. If I could bow out gracefully without looking spiteful I would. Just don't know how to do that. I also don't want to go and be completely upset if exh takes off with baby there and/or treats me like crap in front of his family.