Read any one of my last 20 threads and you are here!!! I am like the "Bold & the beautiful" series. You can miss any of the 10.897.777 episodes and you still know what is happening at any given time...
I think that just quitting your job might be just a little too much spontaneity, just now! A spur of the moment trip to Arizona, on the other hand.....
If things fizzle out when (if) you leave your job, well, then you have the answer to that, too! I think it makes a lot of sense to move carefully with the economy the way it is now. It sounds like the consensus is that it should get better sooner, rather than later (what do they know, but still!), so keeping your ear to the ground is probably the best plan for now.
I'm doing ok, maybe not great, but certainly not poorly.... W will be settling on her house Friday or Monday, it sounds like. Then I need to get the D filed, before things turn into financial spaghetti!
Im doing fine. how are you guys doing? So this is what's going on with me....
I met a sperm donor last week, just for a chat to see how it works and to assess his suitability to father some hypothetical children. He was pretty nice- he seemed like a very generous person and was educated and quite god-looking. He said he's be willing to 'give' me two children so I could have full siblings, which would be nice, and that he had no problem with them knowing he was the father and being involved in their lives (albeit in the periphery). It would be by AI, rather than the natural method, BTW. So, I'm thinking about that. It's nice to have the option available to do it, anyway.
No news from H.... I wonder if he'll contact me when he gets the D papers. I'm wondering whether I should warn him they're coming before they actually arrive. I don't particularly feel like doing it, but then it seems like the polite thing to do. Politeness vs self-interest. Which will win?! Maybe there's a happy medium in there somewhere
The renovation team are all getting on with their work. I have three of them here today.... did I post before that the electrician showed up last Sunday and he looked just like Richard Armitage So funny! The new kitchen is looking great though and the guys are all so entertaining- yesterday morning they were all giving me advice on what to wear to work. It's good fun having them about in spite of the huge mess the flat is in.
CEO is OK. Our R has been pretty strained the past couple of weeks since my birthday. I'm not sure entirely what to make of it, but am trying not to worry about it too much. I don't know how to describe it.... a lot of the comfort has gone from the interaction, maybe partly because I've backed off from being friendly and am treating him like he's my boss. Then this morning he initiated a bit of playful banter with me and yesterday he was wanting me to take him to meet my friends again (aside- why would I take my boss 150 miles to meet my friends at the weekend?!). Maybe backing off is working to make him miss me but we'll see. Either way something had to change so watch this space. I'm going to keep on treating him like my boss until he declares his undying love for me.
So, lots of balls in the air, and I'm doing a lot of thinking. Work is going pretty well- I think I'm managing to thaw some of the living dead at the office, and things seem to be picking up a bit socially- lots of going out happening, which is good fun. Takes me back to my youth
You are giving me the creeps with this sperm donner thing...
Seriously now. What if he has genetic defects in his family? Do you get the full family history? I know you want to feel "safe" that you can do that but I think you are too young to go ahead. And you still havent tried to "attack" the CEO. So, I hope you consider this Plan D at least...(you need to "try" 3 times at least with CEO, that makes it Plan D).
What if you suggested that to him? Say, CEO, you look so good and healthy etc etc , I would love you to be the father of my children. How about it? You care to give me your sperm?
I would pay to see the look on his face
I wouldnt let H know the papers are coming. You already told him.
Sounds like you are enjoying yourself. Good for you, xxxx K
I agree.. whats with the backing off from CEO? Seems like it has just sort of angered/discouraged him?? as opposed to made him want to declare undying love. Can you do the opposite, take a risk and move closer to him instead!?? Get him drunk and kiss him or something !!?? We know you can do it, you used to do it with H and that was just as hard at the time.
Taking you to meet friends 150 miles away is quite a coupley thing to do.. are you going to go? I hope so. I think you seem afraid of making a fool of yourself with him.. but you may as well take a risk and make a move on him, else how will you ever know? He clearly is interested in you, but I think you confuse him and he is NOT getting the green light from you. Thats how it reads anyway. He doesnt want to make a fool of himself, we've all said that before I think, so maybe you should do it for him! It might turn out brilliantly, no need for that sperm donor and if it doesnt.. well then yes, plan B (or D as Kalni says).
I also wouldnt let H know the papers are coming. Dont worry about politeness. He knows he has done wrong and deserves it and its inevitable.. he wont hold it against you, if taht not a wierd way to put it.
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread
Thanks for the H advice- I won't tell him the papers are coming then.
K- I did suggest that CEO give me his sperm once (or Austin did while we three were speaking). He looked a bit scared and ran away to his office. It was really funny, poor thing!
Al- you're right that I probably do confuse the hell out of CEO. In my defence though, he confuses the hell out of me, so at least we're equal even though it's not particularly solution based behaviour! I'm trying backing off because I've tried being very nice to him and it didn't give him room to come towards me. So far the backing off plan but being nice about it seems to be doing OK- he was very sweet to me on Thursday and Friday. And at least backing off a bit gives me the option to 'attack' in the future. An immediate attack would leave no room to manouevre if it takes me a while to find a new job.
My builders are making great progress on the flat and they're so funny and clean. I do like cleanliness is a builder- a very important trait. I think the main work will be done this week after which I can get stuck into making it all look pretty so that'll be fun.
I am plan-less! I don't know what I'm going to do next- decorate my flat, I think and then maybe see if I can sell it. Prices are pretty stable in London so I don't think the value will be too depressed compared to where it was this time last year.
Work wise I'm keeping an eye out for new jobs but probably going to stay at the current place until September since it'll take that long at least to close the deal we're negotiating, assuming all the experiments go according to plan. You can never tell so let's see.
That's about it for now- nothing earth shatteringly exciting. Sorry!
