I guess the purpose of this thread has been a little lost due to my pity party....
In some ways post the realities of my life to basically show that even when they do come home, we still need to learn how to deal with the day to day issues.
Partly due to my own personal anxiety disorder, I tend to stress and worry way more then my Husband.
I was taking meds but really can't afford them anymore so I am trying to go to the gym more, and finding things to keep my anxiety at bay.
He is much more laid back about finances and things that matter.
He tells me to be patient and wait ........Not my strong point!
Blech!!!
I also know that once I hear back about the Unemployment, the roof grant and the Mortgage Modification I will feel much better.
It is very hard to know that all of these things are HUGE issues and totally out of my control.
I got a call yesterday from Unemployment. They are sending some paperwork to verify my employment with my last job. This makes me so nervous as I have no clue as to what they will tell them.
I vent here more then I do at home.
I don't tell him that we have these financial issues because of his bad choices, or that he caused this mess to happen.
I don't throw the past in his face because it serves no purpose to do that.
I do get angry at times when I think about what we had and how we have to struggle now.
And then when I am on my face praying I am reminded about how many things I have been blessed with.
My children and their health especially.
That we have a restored Marriage.
My Husband has a job.
Our cars run.
We have a beautiful home, even with a bad roof!
I guess that is part of life just putting things into perspective and letting the little things go.
I am trying to get there......
One day at a time.
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.
