he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

im tired of waking up upset.

i dont know how to quit, i dont know how to give up.

or is it that im not allowing myself to?

i try to think that way, as if i am done with him, but my mind cant even go there.

maybe over time it will or maybe im just not done?

maybe some people are never done, maybe life moves on and yet some people just still hold out hope?

is it just the way i am, the way i always hope for the happy ending?

i dont know.

i may go into the store today, i need some cheese and chicken cutlets, and id rather not pay for it if we sell it.

ive been avoiding going there, as i always seem more upset when i leave.