SMW, you have amazing strength and a strong faith. It must be hard to remain hopeful after so long. Is there a point that you may decide you need to take additional steps, not because you don't love him or want to live out 1 Corinthians 13, but because you need to for yourself and the children?
Forgive me for not knowing fully your sitch and history, but at this point in time what are you doing for yourself and the kids when you say that you're moving on? Are you still practicing 180's, and acting 'as if'. Are you working on being independent and GAL for your sake and your children? I guess I'm wondering what specifically is working for you, and do you see any signs that your changes (the ones you made for yourself - period) are making an impact with S. And if they aren't, but you're better off anyway, how has that been helpful?
