yes I know that he needs to be past tense. He will be, as you say, baby steps. And i will forgive myself, I will get there.
I am going with my mum and my D to see one of my oldest friends today, she lives about 4 hours away and I haven't seen her for ages.
Will be staying with her tonight, really looking forward to that. Looking forward to developing the garden, spending time with my D, and my mum who has been incredible through all of this. She has suffered and yet so incredibly tenacious.
You are right alive, nothing warrants this treatment. Thank you. It is solely indicative of his current state and unhappiness with himself.
I do feel that I have forward movement. I am getting out, working where I can, resting when I need to, minding my health and best as I can. I havent started to really think about what I want for my life but I will get there, small baby steps!
