Woke up yesterday to a sense of relief and sadness. By night fall I just felt relieved.
I am so glad to be heading out of this pain!Its been TOO hard TOO long for both of us. I popped into a neighbour yesterday, was asking him about his recent hol and he showed me pictures of him his exwife, her partner, his new partner and his two kids by both women all in the pool laughing and basking in the sunshine. The man doesn`t know my sitch and I didn`t know the extent of his but I thought Wow isn`t it just great that they have all moved on and get along so well? I can do that too!
My therapist helped me see what a huge step my H took. He actually made a decision-a tough decision- for once. He initiated the very difficult conversation too.I had thanked him for that but I really should have said That`s fabulous what you just did. You`re helping us both away from this pain.
My realised the kids could be in an even better place. We`ll both be able to be better parents for them. We`ll be calmer and coming from a happier place.
I have to truly drop the rope. I`ve been steering this ship for too long. I would have liked to do MC but forcing H to do that is a non runner. I respect his decision and won`t make it any harder for him.Time to really let go.
