Ok. So when the challengee is ready, the challenge will come. H just informed me via IM, that his dad is marrying his gf (who is a few years older than H). H's dad has already left two wives with children and did major damage to the women and the children. I have sh*t bricks (I mean almost literally) in the past when the topic of him having more kids has come up. Now, they are marrying and she will try to have a baby. I have absolutely 180'd on this and though the feelings are percolating, I just am not judging. And H just can't make sense of it. Probably thought I'd go apesh*t. She knows what she is doing and so does H's dad. If they want to go that route, so be it. I used to wig out that my kids would have an aunt or uncle so much younger than them or that they would be so impacted by having a Grandfather that is a father and a terrible one at that. But now that I am accepting their dad will not exactly be the model I hoped he would, I guess the GF seems like a distant and small fish.
I can tell H is befuddled. He really expected me to freak, set up the conversation with anticipation. I love that I am not so predictable anymore. And I like letting go.
Ok, after that convo he asked if there is anything else I need to tell him before he crashes.
I said "good night...morning...dawn...whatever it is. sleep well."
He said "Guess not. HA. good night." (I think that is a little odd)
I asked "was I supposed to tell you something?"
he said "that's what I was asking."
I said "I'm lost"
He asked "in general"
I said "Oh no, not at all!"
blah blah blah...
it was a little odd...
A few things came to mind "I love you," "I miss you." "You're such a super talented MF and you have a giant ****." Things I would have said in the past. LOL. But now, what am I supposed to say other than good night?
