Yep, just keep remembering that it does get easier, no matter what happens to your M. I can speak from personal experience, if you let go of the fear (cause you WILL be OK) the sadness eventually turns into happy-sad, given enough time.

Did you name this thread after this song? It's a good one.

Left and Leaving
by The Weakerthans

My city's still breathing (but barely it's true)
Through buildings gone missing like teeth.
The sidewalks are watching me think about you,
Sparkled with broken glass.

I'm back with scars to show.
Back with the streets I know
Will never take me anywhere but here.

The stain in the carpet,
This drink in my hand,
The strangers whose faces I know.

We meet here for our dress-rehearsal to say,
"I wanted it this way."

Wait for the year to drown.
Spring forward, fall back down.
I'm trying not to wonder where you are.

All this time lingers, undefined.
Someone choose who's left and who's leaving.

Memory will rust and erode into lists
Of all that you gave me:
A blanket, some matches, this pain in my chest.
The best parts of Lonely.
Duct-tape and soldered wires,
New words for old desires,
And every birthday card I threw away.

I wait in 4/4 time.
Count yellow highway lines
That you're relying on to lead you home.
That you're relying on to lead you home.
That you're relying on to lead you home.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IgJ6soX18R8

(Video is just photos of wolves sleeping--which I find kinda soothing--but you can hear the song.)


It is in the shelter of each other that people live.--Irish proverb

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