WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 10

[confusedinpa]

She doesn't want that. I had been struggling with do I have the strenght and self confidence to love her enough so I can be a friend.

I hope you will be kind to yourself and take this day by day. Friends have boundaries too. Friends sometimes need space or to do their own thing. You will find a groove that works for you. You are a stand-up guy for being here and doing the work you're doing. That makes you really a commodity as a friend and as a spouse in the future...

Aliveandkicking,

Thank you for the encouragement and kind words. I do have my ups and downs - mostly downs over the past couple of days. I'm trying to pick myself up.

I will be seeing my wife tonite as my 3 year old has baseball. Last week she didn't show up (chiropractor appointment). I think she feels likes she has to be there since she has the kids tonite. So I need to shift into my postive, upbeat, attentive, loving CIPA as we will be having dinner together at the park before baseball starts. I'm going to pick up both of the boys and she will be picking up the food (I actually just got off the phone with her).

I won't have to fake the positive attitude as I will be seeing my boys tonite! Haven't seen then in since Sunday morning. I will enjoy the moments and not let myself be dragged down knowing that they will be going to her place tonite after baseball.

Thanks again