She doesn't want that. I had been struggling with do I have the strenght and self confidence to love her enough so I can be a friend.
I hope you will be kind to yourself and take this day by day. Friends have boundaries too. Friends sometimes need space or to do their own thing. You will find a groove that works for you. You are a stand-up guy for being here and doing the work you're doing. That makes you really a commodity as a friend and as a spouse in the future...
