Mike, he does understand. I don't think I am just pushing him away, it is everyone in my life. Everyone (him, mom, dad, friends) right now seems to be a constant reminder of how my life has changed and if I can just be by myself then I can feel just for a little bit that everything isn't in chaos.
During times of trouble is not the time to be alone...In times of trouble you need to be there for your family as they should be for you. You all lean on each other so no one falls..
you came back here for that same reason..it's a safe place..you know theri are people here who will catch you..
your guy should be there for you and you should let him catch you.
Do not look at the negative parts of losing your brother..look at the good he did.....for you, for the people around him....He is with you and always will be..rejoice in the good he did while he was here and do not look at the negative of his passing....he's in a better place for sure..
