No, I haven't found a church since I moved back home. Maybe it is time. I have been looking for a grief couselor without much luck. I do need someone to talk to. My mother who is usually my rock in a crises simply cannot be for this and I feel others are tired of me talking about it.
I know xh is no longer involved in my life, but I cannot imagine not asking even my worst enemy how they are after a tragedy in their life has occurred. I guess that shows me the type of person he truly is. I don't want a R with him, just some common courtesy. Why would he email me and tell me he is there for me if I ever need to talk but ignore my attempts and basically ignore me when seeing me?
I feel like I have just taken ten steps back. I was moving on. I have been dating someone pretty seriously and without him I would have never made it through the first week of this. He was unbelievable. However, now I find myself pushing him away. I am slipping into a deep depression and find it almost impossible to even get out of bed in the mornings.
