Over the Shock and GALing 4

[Thinker]

But, I also knew that I might never have him again and that someone else might and could. That is a huge shift. It doesn't HAVE to be me. I am not obligated. This is tricky territory.

This is indeed tricky Aliveandkicking, because signaling this would (to me) mean my signaling that I am ending the M.

This is back to my personal challenge with gray areas.

I guess my personal paradigm has always been that I am either single and available, or with someone. Flirting was (for me) always just a way to get from the first state to the second.

The gray area in the middle was a transition state, not a long term place to be.

I've recognized the issue with this paradigm, but still have to make the change.

...again, an opportunity for personal growth