Wouldn't you know, saw W again last night. Seems to need an aweful lot of groceries lately? My cousin says W is doing it on purpose. Anyway, once again went out for a somke and looked up the street and there was W walking away toward "her house" constantly looking back over her shoulder. Heh, whatever dear, you made your bed, go sleep in it.
Funny thing, in reflection of reading a thread in the infidelity section I've come to realize some of her current motives. One of W's blames for our M failing was "we were living a lie" over misunderstood events and shuttered them from friends and family. But yet, here she is running 90 miles away in hopes to get away from the one thing she never can no matter where she goes and how fast she runs: her R with OM will always be nothing but a lie. What is there to say when someone asks them "how did you two meet?", especially when her new neighbors ask, "where are the kids this weekend?" (when they are with me). Her life will forever be a lie, poetic justice?
Speaking of kids, tonight will be, should be, the final weekday night we have as a regularity. Really sucks. W says "you can see them whenever you want", yeah, ok, they'll be 90 miles away dumbass!
Before this "move" occurs, I full on expect, no demand OM quit being a little mole hiding in a corner when I am there and be a man and speak up about the kids and what he thinks his role in their life is. I know that should I find myself in the position to graduate from dating to a serious realtion with someone who has kids, I will be man enough to stand up to the kids father and say, 'hey, you're their dad and I will never interfere with that'. Just common decency IMO.
Me 35/XW 33 S13 & S12 M: 10/17/98 OM & S: 07/08 D final 06/09/09 12/03/09 - 06/13/10 "Piercing" 06/13/10: Engaged to Re-marry 10/17/10 06/25/10: Expecting baby #3 2/14/11
