Hello Saffie!! So nice to hear from you. I guess sometimes I just need people to open my eyes again. Puppy's analogy of the spinning plates and then your reminder of the underlying alcohol issue really helps me. It's odd, but I guess that I've been dealing with it for so many years now that I sometimes forget that if we didn't have to deal with the alcohol problem and everything that comes with it we'd probably be a lot better, if not great. I suspect your comments are dead on when describing my H, what he feels and what he's thinking. I just sat there shaking my head yes to everything you had said. In fact, I let a dear friend of mine read your comments too and she said.....Wow, she's pretty spot on for not knowing H personally. I told her, well heck, after 2 years she does know him pretty well!!!
How have you been Saffie? I haven't done a good job in keeping up with people. Email me or let me know on here how you are. I do think of you and many others very often.
H has done his absolute best to completely avoid me and any discussion about the phone call the other day. The past 2 night he has come home, cooked dinner, watched some tv and made sure he's asleep before I get a chance to get D5 to sleep and talk to him! It does amaze me that a 41 (soon to be 42) year old man can act the way he does.....If I just avoid it, it will go away!! I went out running on Monday after work and felt prety good, although these 41 year old knees are giving me some aches. It was an odd feeling for me to be on my way home from work last night and actually think to myself....Man, it's a beautiful day.....I'd love to go for a run. Didn't get to though, as D5 needed some attention and mommy was willing to stay home and give it to her!!
H has again been a bit of an a$$ but instead of letting it bring me down, I go along with life, as I deserve to be happy damn it!!
Work has been busy and is only getting busier. Our company acquired another company last August and this Aug. 1st is the official merge date when all departments and systems should be completely merged and aligned. Working for a VP and a Controller, you can imagine how stressed they are....which in turn stresses me.
Well, time to get busy.
Take care everyone & have a great day!!
SueS
ME: 42, H: 42, D6 Together: 18 yrs. Married: 15 yrs. Attended Retrouvaille - December 2009 Status: Working on it day by day
