How Do You Forgive?

[eternaloptimist]

Let us know what you decide to do, and how we can help.

Puppy

Thank you, everyone! (((HUGS))) Last night on the way home from work, I had a good primal scream/crying fit. I begged God to help me. I'm just so distraught. I lost 2 more lbs. My Mom keeps "talking me off the ledge" hypothetically speaking of course. I'm going to see my C tomorrow, thank the Lord. My Mom has said to just stop thinking about him. He's accused me of being unstable. But, I think he has been for the last 2 1/2 years. I'm not sure if his affair fog is lifting, but he seemed kind of dysphoric/despondent this morning and when he came to see me at work. He said "I'm just emotionally exhausted." I'm so turned around, I don't know what to do next except scream. I just want to protect my son from all of this madness.

One of H's friends is a psychologist. He's an old college buddy and I consider him my friend too. H hasn't told anyone about his therapist I'm sure. Should I try talking to any of his friends or his brother or sister? Should I cross over that confidentiality line/family and friends boundaries and reveal anything to his friends or family? So far, I have told no one except my confidants. I wouldn't do it to shame him at all; on the contrary. Maybe they could help him in a way that I cannot right now b/c he has walls up.

Thanks from the bottom of my broken heart everyone.