My main 180 now is to stop persuing. Without giving up I believe we are not destined to be together as she has not shown any wavering, no degree of regret or sympathy, or blame come to that.
I have to have the mindset that I have to rebuild my life as a single parent and concentrate on the children. This is the hardest realisation I have ever, ever experienced, but for my own sanity I must have this mindset as the longer I am in denial the longer the hurt goes on.
I must remember I am trying to make changes for me and the children, not my wife, as she does not care what I do or say at this point.
Bomb dropped: 19/12/08 Me:48 WAW:41 D:10 S:6 Married: 15 years
