Nothing much to update mnt. Haven't heard a word from him. I haven't contacted him since the last email I sent apologizing for freaking out on him when I found out he was having an EA/PA? with my now ex best friend (May 9th). I wasn't apologizing for being upset. I was apologizing for the venom that spewed from my mouth. I don't get mad often because when I do I go for the jugular and can hurt you with what I know is your weakness. It's not something I am particularly proud of and it is why I keep my temper in check for the most part. I stopped checking on his MSN profile and his youtube account as it felt like borderline stalking and it wasn't helping me to detach. I am working out more and doing more for myself and my children. I am working. I have plans to do some serious summer cleaning as well as some plans for some summer fun. Thanks for looking for my sitch. I took it out of my signature because there really isn't anything to update. I will start journaling again. I am also going to start keeping up with things on my blog. I joined the facebook group for divorce busting.
"It is excruciating pain. It is the pain of separation, the pain of loss, the pain of dreams and expectations unrealized. It is the loss and death of a mirage."
