he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

neither situation is easy to live with.

my problem truly is that, like my mother in law says, "you two dummies are never done with eachother."

its so out of character for him to be doing what he continues to do.

and i do believe he had every intention of leaving ow and being here and running our business.

but i didnt enforce the no contact and transparency. and he didnt give any time between ending it with her and coming home.

and it backfired. big time.

not to mention the business not doing what was planned.

i do not want a divorce, or legal separation. i never did.

so it is extremely hard to move on, especially when i see him waivering once again.

like my friend says, he knows he has me, he knows that he will always see me. the ow, no. so he goes to her, and still has me.

hmm. i know i need to do something about this, let him see he really doesnt "have me", but i need to do it kindly, without changing the locks, without packing his stuff and leaving it outside.

because i know with him, that will not work.

have to find what works.