Renee, Everyone on this board and in real life is entitled to change their minds about things and I changed my mind a while back about your h.
If you obsess about everything the way you do him and his behavior and his future bride, I can certainly understand why he's not in contact w/you. You've got to get a grip on your thinking...you've got to start focusing on the here and now and leave the past in the past. No one knows your h, nor do we know what he's thinking or why he actually left you. There are only two people who could give a good guess as to this and that is God and your xh. We cannot predict what the future will hold for you and your family, but we can say this....you need to get a life and start focusing on something other than him and what he's doing....you are divorced and need to start carving out a life for you and the boys without him in it.
As far as dating goes, from what I'm reading every day from your postings, you are far from ready for the dating scene. No one wants to sit around and listen to you prattle on about your xh and what he's done.
Please schedule an appointment with a therapist. You definitely need some assistance in understanding that you've got to let him go and go on w/your life now.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
