he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

u are right puppy, u are right.

people like to tell me im strong, i dont think i am.

but honestly, i dont want this, i dont want to end my marriage, i dont want to lose my husband, that at one time i had a terrific marriage and life with.

i keep waiting for it to come back.

i dont want to lose him to this ow, who isnt even a woman, is someone who is 22 even a woman?

so what should i do? let him see im moving on, not let him in the house?

i did that 2 years ago and guess what? it only allowed his relationship to flourish.

and then i heard how he didnt see me fighting for him then.

im at a loss.

but if i keep waiting, before i know it, it will be 8 years from now, my son's bar mitzvah, and i will still be sitting here.