Okay, really bad day now. I thought I was getting by the worst of it.

But my husband just sent me this:

Then accept our situation. We are family, we are forever connected. We obviously care about each other... Trust is built on a foundation of consistency. My aspirations at this point is taking care of responsibilities and riding. Ideally with an RV and the bike. To appreciate the sights and sounds.

I responded with:

I accept it in my mind. But my heart is broken.

Trust is a two - way street. I trusted you with my heart and my life.

We knew each other's bodies by heart. We could finish each others sentences. We could communicate with a look. And now you don't want that and I have to accept.

Care? I love you. I have been crying all day.

I am not a part of your aspirations at all. You want your RV, your motorcycle and your freedom. I can give you one of those. I am attaching the tax return in PDF form. You said that you needed it to go to the lawyer.

I will contact my lawyer and tell him you will be sending a separation agreement. I will communicate with you through him, because I am far to distraught to look out for my best interest right now.

I have to go away for a little while because if I stay here I am going to end up in the hospital.

Guys, I was doing so good. I am packing my bag and the dog and I am going somewhere, anywhere but here.


Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08,
S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012!
Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.