Thanks for the encouragement stillloveshim. Something inside of me agrees with you, but I know I'm risking a whole lot. If I could get to the point where I truly am okay with it either way, that's when the power will shift my way. Then the risk is essentially gone, and I can be myself fully and not be wincing at the thought of her saying something about OM or our getting a D. I think I'm close to being there. I'm not sure if spending time with her is helping or hurting.
