he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

i am in the most f---d up relationship.

h comes, uses his key to come in. sits himself down on the couch, with the blanket on his lap as if nothing, as if he didnt up and leave me.

playful with our son, we were all in the den, i made small talk.

son leaves room, he is still sitting with me.

then my son came back in, they went to go wash his car in the driveway.

i notice he took in my garbage cans. it must be love again. when he was living here and got angry about it, he didnt bring in the garbage cans.

i swear, i will never get over him, never move on, as long as little things like this continue.

and im allowing them to continue. because i want them.

not sure what im supposed to do.

its as if he didnt leave here.