Fire's burning out...just smoldering

[blindsided1]

I am doing okay...really. I have relapses and sorrow filled days, still. But, not nearly as often as I did 3 short months ago. Everyday is different. Some are great, some are sad and some just are. The more I think about my H and see him CLEARLY, now, the more I don't want what he has to offer. Imagine...he leaves his pregnant wife, moves in with OW and she pays for everything, get her pregnant (probably didn't think he could), has a son with her, sees his daughter once a week, doesn't ask about her in between, and the whole time he is still trying to have sex with me. From the beginning, we were still having sex well into the first year of our separation. And, just last weekend, he asks me, again. So, it's hard for me to believe that his R with OW ISN'T shallow. I DO know that, that is not the kind of man I want as a partner...and God knows what he did during out M. I don't want to know. EVER