KJo, I am sure today has got you down but it is just a date on the calendar. You are not the same person you were a year ago. Celebrate, appreciate and give thanks for your growth over the past year. You are a success story.
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While at the library I had a thought that just drove through my brain like a lightning bolt that honestly put me into a serious funk.
The thought as cogently as I can get it down on paper is:
Love is not a surge of passion, it a choice to commit to something or someone no matter what obstacles or temptations stand in the way. And maybe making that choice again and again, day in and day out, year after year says more about love than never having a choice at all.
How did arriving at that conclusion put you into a funk? Sounds like a serious affirmation of what you believe to me, which is goodness. Cheers Coach
Thank you Coach. Yes I am down, but that is somewhat improved by having gone fishing. (Only caught on, lousy reel.) I will improve it more by visiting with my son, and then later going to buy me a new rod and reel.
It is goodness and it is how I feel. The funk came from the fact that my H hasn't really embraced the concept and so far has no intention of making a choice. In his words, you either feel it or you don't, and it has to develop organically.
Honestly, between that statement and the "separation being more humane than going right to a divorce" I am not sure if I'm a dog or a potted plant.
I will celebrate my growth as best I can, Coach. I will get through this day like I have others. That is, on bended knees.
Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.
