In Utter Agony...Long 1st Post

[eternaloptimist]

Thanks so much for the support here today.

Anybody else use homeopathic medicine to cope with the DBing stress? I keep Bach's Flower Rescue Remedy spray with me at all times. It has been helping.

Ho-Hum. H called me about 6 times today, sounding remorseful, apologizing, saying he's sorry that he hurt me so much these past 6 months, worried about my sanity and psychological well-being b/c of my recent emotional outbursts that scared him. He tells me where he's going during the day, what he's doing, etc. All good signs I think that he is trying to let me know his whereabouts. This is all new behavior. He wanted to talk about the R and our "big talk" tomorrow night where we are going to look at finances and options and which option will be best for all three of us and which option will require the most "effort." He's emotionally exhausted and just "wants to be alone." I need to bite my tongue, but I want to say, "Divorce will not solve our problems. It will create new ones and permanent ones for our son." His divorced friends keep pumping info into him that, if we can part amicably, divorce doesn't have to be negative for the children involved.

I calmly told him in each phone call that given the circumstances, I'm doing pretty well and that we will be fine whatever the outcome. We discussed the day-to-day care of our son and schedules.

I just have no idea what to think anymore. I believe he has 1 1/2 feet out the door... Given his emotional turmoil, I think he's incapable of making any healthy decisions to affect the rest of his life.