In Utter Agony...Long 1st Post

[eternaloptimist]

Hi, Burt. Thanks for your support. Points well taken.

Oh, Puppy has responded about the EA with great perspective. I think the EA I'm dealing with is very unusual though. I can't quite figure out what is truth vs. fiction. I think focusing on the EA simply isn't going to get me anywhere positive anyway...so I'm going to just move past it. I have to get out of the emotional chaos.

I have tons of hobbies/interests. I am planning to start painting again with the goal of having an exhibition. My GALing efforts are limited unfortunately. I'm working out religiously at home b/c it is more convenient for me. As of today, I lost 25 lbs! So I know that has been good for me. Wish I could work less right now b/c I know that has always been an issue in our relationship, that I have devoted too much time to my career. I have 2 master's degrees. But, I'm pretty overwhelmed with my profession right now to devote time to hobbies. (I'm faculty on the tenure track if that means anything to you.) Any free time I have, I spend with our son.