he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

i have cried less today than yesterday, although i think right now each day doesnt get better, it is just going to be up and down for a while.

i made sure to put on my eye makeup, perhaps if i think about crying and remember i have my eye makeup on, i will not want to ruin it!

vicky, we are certainly in this again because there is a lesson that one or both of us was to learn.

i really do feel that i did everything possible to make us work, but i did not enforce certain boundaries.

and i feel that my h did not give himself time between ending with ow and coming home which backfired.

who knows what will happen, i hate that the future is so uncertain.