Newcomer, want to keep my hope alive!

[iwantittowork]

Wow, hard to believe I have not posted in my own thread since May 28th!

I have been trying to GAL, focus on myself and my D, took Friday and Monday off from work. I have spent the last 3 weekends not doing things with my W, and doing things with my D, went and saw Up! with her, took her to a town fair the next day, went on a bike ride with her on Sunday. Spent yesterday for myself, but had a few things to do, then picked up my D at school as agreed to with my W so she could go workout.

One thing interesting to note, after picking up me D from school, we swung by the beach so she could play in the sand and on the jetty for a while, and on my way home the W called me asking if we were coming home for dinner or what? She sounded annoyed. Now I don't read too much into that, and just take it for what it is.

Nothing new on my M, but I find that the roller coaster emotional swings seem to be getting smaller at least, so I am looking at that as a good sign. It's still tough for sure, but the lows don't seem to go as low as they were, I have been trying to meditate and working on me, and that's where the focus will remain, and must remain, that is clear.

The W has been making sure to go to bed early, if I am downstairs watching TV, or if I am upstairs she comes to bed later. That used to annoy me, but I find lately that I simply don't care about that, I just do what I am want to be doing, then go to bed when I want. It seems trivial, for sure, but not sure why that doesn't bother me as much anymore, but that's a good thing.